Latest Happenings

I cannot believe how busy that I can keep myself! It is good. I have so many projects that I want to finish and it just keeps me going.

Of course my main concern is my family. It is hard to keep up to everything that we have going on. Mikes work is still slow and that puts a strain on us as parents to be able to keep up with everything. It seems that you just pay the bills and then bill time comes again, but pay days take forever to come!!! It is humbling for us to go through this and makes us both really appreciate our jobs even more. (Even though he really does not like his)

It makes me think back to old times when all they did was worry where their next meal was coming from. That would be very hard to handle with your children. Don't know how Emma Smith stayed to strong and endured what she did. She had to have been a great lady. My stress is nothing compared to what her and her family went through. Even when I am down and depressed I can always think of somebody who is in a lot worse situation than I am and it seems that I can pull myself back. I have never been a real depressed person but since the surgeries and chemo, for some reason it has been harder for me. The doctors say it is common when someone loses major organs and want to put me on anti depressants but I think they have put my body through enough drugs!!! Enough already! I am doing it with pray and trying to keep up on my scripture reading. I have also made a commitment to try and bake some bread and take to someone at least once a week and it is so fun to see the expressions on the faces of the random people when they get hot bread. I love hot bread so I think everybody should love it also.

People helped my family so much in the last 2 years and now it is time for me to return the favors to other people. I pray every day to be sensitive to others people needs so that I can help them the way people helped me.

I love my Heavenly Father and the strength that he gives me in my trails. One scripture that I have loved is in Alma 37:37 "Counsel with the Lord in all thy doings, and he will direct thee for good; yea, when thou liest down at night lie down unto the Lord, that he may watch over you in your sleep; and went thou risest in the morning, let thy heart be full of thanks unto God; and if ye do these things, ye shall be lifted up at the last day."

My next scripture I received came to me by inspiration from some angel looking down on me. I was on my way to the doctor in Salt Lake for a check up and was so nervous and down and depressed. We were early, (Patty took me to this one) and we decided to walk around the Salt Lake Temple. I just wanted to sit at the Christ Statue in the visitor center. As I was sitting there the cutest little sister missionary came and sat by me and ask if everything was OK. As soon as she asked me the tears started. I told her what I was going through and I am sure she could tell because chemo patients always have a certain look about them. She then told me about her dad who had died of cancer and left 10 kids behind. She was the oldest of the kids and just talked to me about what she did to get through it. I felt for her mother and could not imagine how hard that would have been. She immediately went to the scripture in Ether 12:27 "And if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then I will I make weak things become strong unto them." I just loved it. I left the temple grounds so uplifted and comforted. All because this cute little missionary was in tune and sensitive to my need. I hope and pray I can help people, even in a little way.

In church yesterday Bro Ron Campbell gave a talk and he talked about all of Ether 12. He called it his PFD (personal floatation devise) and likened it to being in a sinking boat. He talked about how this chapter was so important to him and helped him through much. I immediately took to it because I knew that this scripture was in there. I have read it before but never in the way I did yesterday. It gave me such hope and just touched my heart. It is now my PFD!!!!
I also love this scripture in D&C 84:88 "And whoso receiveth you, there I will be also, for I will go before your face. I will be on your right hand and on your left,and my Spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels round about you to bear you up."

This is how I know that he has many Angels working for Him, both living and dead. Thanks to the people who have touched my life! I know Heavenly Father used them as instruments and I thank Him and his angels for touching my life!