I just watched a message on Youtube (My new life. Stepahnie Nielson) about a lady that was in a plane crash. Oh how my heart goes out to her and her family, but I cherish the strength she has. I think the reason that it touched me so much is the scripture at the end is the scripture that got me through my cancer trial. It is still getting me through my trials that I am facing now. She wonders why she lived and almost everyday I wonder why I was spared my life twice. Most people don't make it through one scare of cancer let alone two. Many people tell me all the time that they admire my courage and my strength at what I went through. I say hog wash!! Everybody has trials that they go through. I can guarantee that to watch a daughter make wrong choices, and there is nothing that I can do about it, is a greater trial than cancer any day. Everybody knows what goes on when you are sick, but when your children are hurting, or making bad choices you keep it inside. The pain that a mother experiences with her children is just as great a trial. We all need courage and strength to get through our everyday live's. The gospel has all the help and courage and strength we need if we will just use it. I sometimes miss the spirit that I felt the whole time I was sick. There was just a strength and a feeling of love, and I knew that my Heavenly Father was there for me then, as is he now.
D & C 84:88 And whoso receiveth you, there I will be also, for I will be on your right hand and on your left, and Spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels round about you, to bear you up."
He is with us always. His angels are our friends, and family, and sometimes a stranger, that you meet but left you feeling a little bit better. When I was in the hospital I met so many that I will never know, or see again, but I will never forget them. We are here to help each other and I pray everyday that I will be sensitive to peoples needs to help them. I am grateful that I can be here so that when Nathan wants me to watch him do his back flip on the trampoline, for the 10th time. Or when Syd calls for lunch or just to talk. For the smile that I see when Karli comes home and says hi. The times that Mike and I have together, just talking, laughing or sometimes even disagreeing. I don't know why he spared me but I am thankful that he did. It makes me want to be a better Mom and friend. If I can help anybody have a better day, then maybe I can be the angels that Heavenly Father needs for somebody else. So I am here and healthy and alive. I need to quit wondering why and live my life and be the best that I can be. I need to remember to not put a question mark where the Lord has put a period!!!!
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With all the trials that I (my family) has gone throught I have now decided that it is not WHY it is BECAUSE. Things happen to us Because. I think because we are the best ones to handle it and I am so thankful for the because. I love my life and I love to hear about your life and how you are doing. I look up to you and want to be a wife and mother like you. You have so much fun with your kids and support them and I love the way to talk about your husband even when you were at the salon you always had so many good things to say about him. I am glad to hear you are doing well. Also I read nienie's Blog you should check it out. I love that lady.
I love you Darlene! You just helped me have a better day. I too, am greatful for those Angels surrounding me. ad
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