Dec 8 treatment

Today is Sydneys 18 birthday and I am not celebrating. I hate them to grow up. We did have a party for her and our friends brought her favorite supper to her. I Hope they all had fun. My Chemo really kicked me in the but that time. I have pretty much been down since then. It made me really sick. I did try some shopping on Sat and made it to one store and then had Mike bring me home. It is so hard to shop when you are sick. This week I have been in the Dr. everyday but today. I just have pills to take today. Tomorrow I will go back in for more blood tests. He told me he is not going to treat me on Mon cause my body is just not strong enough right now. I only have 3 treatments left and we are considering not doing them because of what they do to me. I lost 7 more lbs this week and I am eating like a horse. We just cant stop the diaria. I have have had it for 4 months now. How would you like to deal with that and a bag. It is so much fun. On the 16 Mike had to work a swing and then a grave so I had Nathan come and sleep with me. I got up and past out in the bathroom and hit my head on the floor. It really hurts but no bruise. If I am going to pass out= and fall on the floor I sure as heck want something to show for it. Any way Nathan found me and it scared him to death. It was the weirdest thing I could hear him but could not wake up. He keep shaking me telling me to wake up Mom. Please Mom wake up. Don't die Mom and he was crying. I felt so bad for him. When I did wake up he would not leave me alone at all and would not let go of me. He is still very protective of me. Then about three hours later I did the same thing but this time Syd found me. She heard me hit the shower door. Nathan was sleeping so he did not know about it which I am glad. Today I do feel better. This time it is my potasiam and electrolytes that is so low. They think that is why i pasted out. Now I cant be alone and I hate it. If its not one thing iwth my dang blood it is another. well I will keep youposted on what our next plan of action is later