Mothers Day

This year for Mothers Day, Mike kept asking what I wanted. For years I have hated my front flower bed, so I told him all I wanted was for him to rip it out and up and make it so I never have to take care of it again. I gave him my design how I wanted it and I even told him I would help with the manual labor. I worked my tail off.......but he really worked his off. It took him 2 days of working all day. I am just so mad that I did not get a before picture of it. It was so pathetic and ugly. The brown spot in the lawn is where Nathan spray painted the lawn and then lite it on fire!!! Look how beautiful it is now!!!!!!! I just love it. He told me next year he will not ask me what I want again and will just get me a big flower basket!!!!

We then went up to my Moms and surprised her for Mothers Day. She had no idea that we were coming and when she got home from church we hid on her deck and jumped out when she got out of the car. We had tin foil dinners ready to eat. Fun day! This is me and my cute Mama!!! I love her.

The Trials in our life!

I just watched a message on Youtube (My new life. Stepahnie Nielson) about a lady that was in a plane crash. Oh how my heart goes out to her and her family, but I cherish the strength she has. I think the reason that it touched me so much is the scripture at the end is the scripture that got me through my cancer trial. It is still getting me through my trials that I am facing now. She wonders why she lived and almost everyday I wonder why I was spared my life twice. Most people don't make it through one scare of cancer let alone two. Many people tell me all the time that they admire my courage and my strength at what I went through. I say hog wash!! Everybody has trials that they go through. I can guarantee that to watch a daughter make wrong choices, and there is nothing that I can do about it, is a greater trial than cancer any day. Everybody knows what goes on when you are sick, but when your children are hurting, or making bad choices you keep it inside. The pain that a mother experiences with her children is just as great a trial. We all need courage and strength to get through our everyday live's. The gospel has all the help and courage and strength we need if we will just use it. I sometimes miss the spirit that I felt the whole time I was sick. There was just a strength and a feeling of love, and I knew that my Heavenly Father was there for me then, as is he now.


D & C 84:88 And whoso receiveth you, there I will be also, for I will be on your right hand and on your left, and Spirit shall be in your hearts, and mine angels round about you, to bear you up."

He is with us always. His angels are our friends, and family, and sometimes a stranger, that you meet but left you feeling a little bit better. When I was in the hospital I met so many that I will never know, or see again, but I will never forget them. We are here to help each other and I pray everyday that I will be sensitive to peoples needs to help them. I am grateful that I can be here so that when Nathan wants me to watch him do his back flip on the trampoline, for the 10th time. Or when Syd calls for lunch or just to talk. For the smile that I see when Karli comes home and says hi. The times that Mike and I have together, just talking, laughing or sometimes even disagreeing. I don't know why he spared me but I am thankful that he did. It makes me want to be a better Mom and friend. If I can help anybody have a better day, then maybe I can be the angels that Heavenly Father needs for somebody else. So I am here and healthy and alive. I need to quit wondering why and live my life and be the best that I can be. I need to remember to not put a question mark where the Lord has put a period!!!!