Now what Do I Do?

Well after my last blog they put me right in the hospital. I was so flipping sick that this time I was HAPPY to go in. My potassium and electrolytes were low and my diarrhea was horrible. That was why I was fainting. And I did have bruises from fainting. Sydney came in the bathroom when I was bathing and said What happened to your shoulder? I had a big bruise on my shoulder. also on my hip and all the way down my back and spine. They did not hurt but they stayed along time. In the hospital they had to feed me in my port and I tell you as soon as it hit me I could feel the strength coming back in my body. Dr told me to take the year off and let my body heal and then we would talk about chemo. We want to quit but he wants me to have my last 3 doses at half strength. He does not feel my body can handle the full strenght. The week they put me in the hospital I lost 8 lbs and in the hospital I gained 15. I have lost some of the 15 again but I have maintained better. I have felt really good other than I have no strength. I had a great Christmas and it feels so good to feel good. I still don't like to go outside. The cold is really hard on me. I live in my electric blanket and have the fireplace on most of the time. So when I go back to the Dr and we make a decision of what to do then I will let you know. As for now have a Happy New Year.

Dec 8 treatment

Today is Sydneys 18 birthday and I am not celebrating. I hate them to grow up. We did have a party for her and our friends brought her favorite supper to her. I Hope they all had fun. My Chemo really kicked me in the but that time. I have pretty much been down since then. It made me really sick. I did try some shopping on Sat and made it to one store and then had Mike bring me home. It is so hard to shop when you are sick. This week I have been in the Dr. everyday but today. I just have pills to take today. Tomorrow I will go back in for more blood tests. He told me he is not going to treat me on Mon cause my body is just not strong enough right now. I only have 3 treatments left and we are considering not doing them because of what they do to me. I lost 7 more lbs this week and I am eating like a horse. We just cant stop the diaria. I have have had it for 4 months now. How would you like to deal with that and a bag. It is so much fun. On the 16 Mike had to work a swing and then a grave so I had Nathan come and sleep with me. I got up and past out in the bathroom and hit my head on the floor. It really hurts but no bruise. If I am going to pass out= and fall on the floor I sure as heck want something to show for it. Any way Nathan found me and it scared him to death. It was the weirdest thing I could hear him but could not wake up. He keep shaking me telling me to wake up Mom. Please Mom wake up. Don't die Mom and he was crying. I felt so bad for him. When I did wake up he would not leave me alone at all and would not let go of me. He is still very protective of me. Then about three hours later I did the same thing but this time Syd found me. She heard me hit the shower door. Nathan was sleeping so he did not know about it which I am glad. Today I do feel better. This time it is my potasiam and electrolytes that is so low. They think that is why i pasted out. Now I cant be alone and I hate it. If its not one thing iwth my dang blood it is another. well I will keep youposted on what our next plan of action is later

Treatment on Monday Dec 1

Treatment has been pretty good this week. I even went Christmas Shopping yesterday. Paying for it today though. I just get really tired. I ate something yesterday that did not agree with my ili and did not have a fun night. Being real careful today. Just glad I feel good. We went up to my sister Patty's for Thanksgiving and had a real good time. I am just so lazy though. I am amazed at how much the chemo takes out of you. Thanks to everybody who helps and brings dinners to us. At least my kids can have more then cold cereal. I did make Sunday dinner though. Mike did help but it felt good to help him. I have 4 more treatments left. I should be finished in Jan. 5 I think should be my last chemo. I pray that everything looks good on the tests. They wont do anything (tests) till Jan though. My blood had been low but he did a new drug on me and it brought it up really high. I think thats why I am doing so well this time. Well Merry Shopping and I will see ya later.